Recently, I became lazy to express my thoughts to this blog
 as well as to my Japanese blog.
 Something suppresses me but I don't know what.
I hope I will become eager in writing an an article.

Yesterday, I made a compilation video about our travel.
I installed Windows Live Movie Maker to my computer again.
I am finished making the video.
But the problem is, if anyone like my video.

That compilation video I made was intended to capture
family's hearts. I published that compilation to youtube and
I shared it to my facebook. It seems that only 1 person liked it.
I think they don't like what I made.

That compilation video, I want that to be seen by my father.
Because I want my father to be happy at me.
My father is always busy at work with his friends.
So I think we don't always spend time to each other.

I've always wanted to show to my father my affection towards him.
Since I was young, I longed my father to smile at me in a loving way.
I made some fancy letters, but I didn't give to him.
I'm afraid if I hand him my letter, he would say "I'm busy".

I don't like an answer like that.
I want someone to appreciate my letters and my hard work
that I bothered to make. But after all, my hard work doesn't pay off.

Why is it like this? If I try best for my loved ones, they don't seem to
notice that I'm trying my best. The world is different.
No. Is it the world or is it just me? Lacking of attention...

I,I...
I forgot what I want to say...