Talking about myself...

I am fond of writing many sentences. Because I think many sentences are better than a few sentences. And I do really think that many sentences catches attention to the people.

I like language. I like writing letters. I like writing since I was a kid. I wrote love letters for my parents when I was small. But I didnt give it to them. Because I have reasons.

I'm childish, outside. I am acting childish. Why? Because I want people to laugh and be friends with me. I want close friend. But I dont know what close friend really means.

I have many friends since I was a kid. There are many people who care for me, I know. But sometimes, I get the feeling of being alone. Maybe, this is because of my emotional growth stage?

I'm acting childishly when I was a kid. But I think, originally, I wasn't childish.

During my toddler years, I always observed my mother. How she acted and how she talked to her friends. My mother always acted funny and amusing. She was like a clown for me. My mother is silly. Her friends would always laugh hardly whenever she cracks a joke or tell some stories with humor. My mother is humorous. I thought that was weird.

When I was small, I hated to show respect to my mother's friends. Because I thought they were weird people. Her friends vaccinized me. Meaning, I got an injection. I hated injections because it's painful.

My first memory was when I was 8 months old. I didn't actually remember how old was I when I realized that I was not color blind anymore. My first memory was, I think, I vomitted when I ate spaghetti. So from that time on, I promised that I will never eat spaghetti again. But now, I like spaghetti.

In my childhood, I really hated to be called as 'lady'. I thought people were trying to destroy my life as an innocent kid. I was 7 years old when they started to call me 'lady'. I hated it. And then, my brother began to tease me with that word. I really hated it. People were trying to insist that I was really a lady when I am actually not. I thought all the people were evil. My mother told me that it's all a joke and they're just teasing me. But, I couldn't accept such jokes. I hate jokes like that.

So, to make those evil people stop teasing me, I acted childishly like a baby. I thought that would make them shut up. But they're just hard as the stone.

I am a person who nearly denies everything about herself. I want to become baby forever. But that's 100% impossible.

But now, I want to change my self. My thinking. my actions and so many more bad things about me. I have to transform as soon as possible. I only have 2 years to transform... so I think I shall try my very best.


I had wanted to talk about my self more to my real world friends. But it seems that, everyone's busy and I think I don't have close friends in real world. So it's difficult for me to be at ease.

I, really want to thank to the people who read this. 100x thanks a lot! Good night! Sweet dreams!

Yezzzzzzz

I learned how to read katakana fufufu hurrah!＼(^o^)／

Yesterday late at night, I started to practice reading katakana（＾∇＾）

Actually, I said about learning katakana in my other blog a few weeks ago, maybe. I did not study katakana very well but yesterday I did. And now, I think I have learned katakana!! o(^▽^)
hurrah!!! Good for me（＾∇＾）

Congratulations to myself(^o^)

Iphone

Hi there, spider!

Ummm I always use my father's Iphones. Yes, IphoneS. That means two Iphones. And it is iphone 4S. He uses his other iphone more than his other iphone so I tend to use often his other iphone. But now, it's different. My father gave me iphone. Not iphone 4S. But iphone 3G. Iphone 4S is more cooler than Iphone 3G. I'm so so happy. Happy to the max（＾Ｏ＾☆♪

Yesterday, I started drinking milk. Fresh milk. Before, I hate the taste of milk, but now... I think the taste changed. It became... yummy♡

Fresh milk with cereal... Hmmm i think it is the best. I like this cereal so maybe... That's why.

Ah, I got to take a bath now so,
Ciao siopao☆

Right now, I htink I just came up with a topic. Well maybe an interesting topic? kukuku
It's about doctor's handwriting. So what do you think of doctor's handwriting? Well, I think doctor's handwriting is not understandable. It's difficult to read. I think this is going to be an interesting topic so I'll just post the rest of my thinking in my Japanese blog later.

So see you later
heavy weighter

The month of June is coming closer. And that means my summer vacation is over and I'm back to school. I don't know if I want to go back or not... because I haven't done anything interesting in my summer vacation. This year's summer vacation is different from last year's, I think. I did a lot of things during my summer vacation last year. And that was more fun than this year. And I became a top class student last year. Because I think I had very high motivation. And that motivation comes from the things I did and learned during last year's summer vacation. And more importantly, what strove me to do my best in school was the motivation of being a president. Yes, I was a president in school. So I thought I should try my best and be a good example to other students. I think I did my best as a president. I prevented bad things from happening. I scolded my classmates for the wrong thing that they have done. And I think I went too strict? And that's what my classmates think too. I was too strict. I get angry over such things that in actual they aren't really a big deal. I'm strict and that's a fact lol. I want my surroundings to be peaceful because that's just who I am. lol.

Recently, I got new friends. Well, they comment in my Japanese blog. And I get happy when I receive comments from anybody. Actually, for me, it doesn't matter who the person who comments as long as he/she comments in my blog. Because I get pleased when I receive commentzzzz. So, I'd like every person in the world to comment in my blog. But that's impossible because not all people do internet and stuffs related to that.

I think this article is nonsense because I just write what's in my mind, haha. But this is great because I'm able to express myself :)

I have high motivation. But sometimes, that high motivation would disappear. So I'm not able to write an interesting article. Speak of interesting article... are my articles that interesting? lol

I am reading Japanese blogs and this year, I think I easily forget them. Is it because I'm getting older? Or I don't have much motivation for learning Japanese? Yeah, recently, I always forgot Japanese words. I couldn't easily memorize them unlike last year. Last year, I was very motivated to learn Japanese but then there's school so I think I couldn't write so much articles in my Japanese blog therefore I have not so much memories written in my blog. And that's so sad.

Well, anyway,
if you read this nonsense, boring, idiotic, gibberish blog,
I want to say thank you very much! I hope you continue to read my blog even if you guys don't understand what I am saying! :) I'm so happy :)

Hello everybody! How are you doing? Today, the sky is blue. I think today's weather will be good. Recently, I think I'm out of motivation in writing interesting topics.

I'm going to talk about yesterday in pigg. Yesterday, one of my friends and I were searching for members for our English club. I think it's difficult to talk to Japanese. And guess what, I had been called "kowai" by a Japanese. But it's a big deal though. And think that Japanese is right. I'm scary.

About motivation, I think I am not actually out of motivation. It's just that, I'm suppressing what I want to say. I don't want to talk so much things about me because I'm trying to change myself. Yes, that's my plan. I want to act cool and considerate. kukuku. My goal is not for praise but for the betterment of myself. So from now on, I'll be refraining myself from talking private things.

In my ameba blog, I think I haven't written so much articles in this month. It's because I made ameba blog into Japanese with english subtitles. So, it's difficult for me write long sentences. I can't write perfectly in Japanese, that's why. And my mind is 90% English and 10% Japanese. My ameba blog is part of my training in successfully learning Japanese. I'll give my best to write in Japanese in ameblo.

Next month, my summer vacation will be over. I don't hate next month. It's kind of exciting next month. kukuku. I'll do my very best next month. I'll study harder and reduce my time in playing on the internet. But I will not promise. Who knows what will happen to me next month...I should become considerate to others. I mean, minding about how other people feel.

Thanks for reading. See you later, heavy weighter（‐＾▽＾‐）

Sometimes, I want to speak in Japanese.

Sometimes, when I write an English article,

My mind would think of speaking Japanese.

So, let me write in English and Japanese from now on.

The other day, 2 Japanese visitors came in the morning. They are my father's friends in the company. One is 55 years old and the other one is 32 years old. This 55 year old man is from Tadotsu. And the other is... I still don't know.

They cooked noodles, さぬきうどん

Udon is a kind of noodle in Japan.

They said that the best udon is found in Shikoku.

My father told me to eat さぬきうどん using chopsticks.

CHOPSTICKS.

Well, I know how to hold the chopsticks but

balancing it is quite difficult. Anyway, I managed to eat

the noodles using chopsticks with a little bit of difficulty.

yokatta wa ne.

さぬきうどん's taste is... different.

I like it, I don't like it.

I can't explain so much about さぬきうどん's taste because

I am not a Japanese. I am a foreigner who ate さぬきうどん

for the first time... I think the taste is 50% OKAY.

In the afternoon, we went to "WILD WILD WEST".

That is a place. My father introduced to them slingshot.

Do you know what is slingshot?

Does Japan have slingshot?

I think slingshot is a toy usually for children...

but I don't play slingshot because it's difficult.

Everybody, I haven't driven any vehicle yet in my life.

But this is my first time driving one.

My first time driving a vehicle... this is it.

kukukuku

In the early evening, we went to high mountains where ZIPLINE is located.

But unfortunately, when we asked them,

ZIPLINE WA MOU YARANAIN DATTE.

So, we just took dinner in a restaurant and it's very cold. It's naturally cold!

Oh and I didn't talk to Japanese because I'm afraid they might not understand English.

But they talked to me.

He said "Do you like ハローキティ ?" I couldn't understand what he was saying because

I can't hear him clearly. Then, my brother told me, "It's HELLO KITTY".

And I said, "Oh hello kitty. Yes I like hello kitty".

He said, "In Japan, manyハローキティストラップ "

But I couldn't understand what he said because his English pronunciation isn't clearly pronounced.

I said, "ハローキティストラップ...ストラップ..."

My brother said "Strap!"

I said, "A strap! Un un"

He said, "un un"

THE END OF CONVERSATION. LOL

I think, talking with a Japanese in real life is difficult. Very difficult. Because they can't speak English well and they need to exhibit hand gestures. Otherwise, we won't get to understand each other.

I like Japanese. I like to talk with Japanese on the internet. But talking with Japanese in real life is... difficult >_<



Recently, I became lazy to express my thoughts to this blog
 as well as to my Japanese blog.
 Something suppresses me but I don't know what.
I hope I will become eager in writing an an article.

Yesterday, I made a compilation video about our travel.
I installed Windows Live Movie Maker to my computer again.
I am finished making the video.
But the problem is, if anyone like my video.

That compilation video I made was intended to capture
family's hearts. I published that compilation to youtube and
I shared it to my facebook. It seems that only 1 person liked it.
I think they don't like what I made.

That compilation video, I want that to be seen by my father.
Because I want my father to be happy at me.
My father is always busy at work with his friends.
So I think we don't always spend time to each other.

I've always wanted to show to my father my affection towards him.
Since I was young, I longed my father to smile at me in a loving way.
I made some fancy letters, but I didn't give to him.
I'm afraid if I hand him my letter, he would say "I'm busy".

I don't like an answer like that.
I want someone to appreciate my letters and my hard work
that I bothered to make. But after all, my hard work doesn't pay off.

Why is it like this? If I try best for my loved ones, they don't seem to
notice that I'm trying my best. The world is different.
No. Is it the world or is it just me? Lacking of attention...

I,I...
I forgot what I want to say...

Digital Camera's Charger

Yesterday, I was very sad and worried. Why? It's because I thought my digital camera's charger was nowhere to be found. I didn't lose it since I wasn't the one who keep the charger. I blamed the lising of my digital camera's charger to my younger brother. That's because... well... secret.

I looked everywhere in my house to find the charger but found nothing. Washing machine, closet, bed, cabinet and so many more places in the house, I searched. But at the end of the night testerday, I couldn't find my charger. I was very sad because I thought I wouldn't be able to take pictures anymore. And it's quite expensive...

Now, I am very happy because a while ago, my father was able to find the charger in his 2nd laptop's bag. I thought of searching of his bag yesterday but I thought I shouldn't.

Now, I feel my efforts that I made in searching for the camera were nothing. My efforts didn't pay off, LOL. But it's okay because the charger is already here and safe with me.

Today was hot. The temperature in the day was 32 degrees celsius. And in the night... I'm not quite sure. I'll check the temperature of my place now. So I got to go. Bye, thanks for reading. I owe you a lot :)

May 10~13 2012

Hello eveybody! How are you? If you ask me how am I, well, I was on vacation! In another Island! Actually, we were visiting my grandparents (papa's side). I'll let you see some pictures that I took.

This picture, I think it was taken in the aftenoon. I find it photogenic so I took pictures like these.

I also took videos of my mama and myself and I'm going to upload it later. It's peaceful in the countryside.

Do you like this picture?

My family went to the beach. But I and my father are the only people that didn't swim in the sea. I didn't like to swim at that time because I was in the mood to take pictures.

I found out that there is Wi-Fi in the beach. So, I used Iphone to upload pictures on facebook.

And I also took a picture in Iphone using Instagram. Instagam is a popular photo application. It is already bought by Facebook.

I will let you see one picture that I took in Instagram.

This is it.

My pose is Nike's.

I took a picture of myself in the beach.

I actually used "self-timer". LOL.

In this picture, It was difficult for me to prevent myself from falling.

But then again, I always fall . LOL.

After going the beach, I went to this aunt's house. Actually, my parents weren't with me this time. This aunt invited me to go to her house and so I went to her house.

Well, this is her house. Her children are already big. So nobody is in the house except her and her husband.

Upon going to her house, I walked through the mountain. It wasn't slippery since it wasn't raining. But still, this aunt is worried about me getting injured. I am a baby. So maybe that's why she's worried about me. 

In her house, she gave us biscuits and SPRITE.

You already know what is SPRITE. Sprite is a very very very famous drink. Sprite is distributed all over the world.

This is my little brother. Actually, my little brother isn't normal like me. He is a special child.

Special child means abnormal. My little brother is autistic. He has difficulty in communicating. My parents love him so much. But I, I hate him. LOL.

On the last day of our vacation, we visited an old zoo.

This is my mother (blue).

Look what I had seen.

I think, this is an old Japanese yen.

This money is from many other countries.

This money is preserved.

Guess who's this....

Can you recognize me?? I became a monkey! This picture will be my facebook cover. I think this is nice.

I touched the snake!! This kind of snake is called as Python.

At first, I was scared of the snake. I was afraid that it might bite me. But when I touched the snake, I thought it was OK. SAFE. The snake doesn't have odor. So it's okay.

This is the snake.This snake has already been fed. So, it won't bite me.

There are many things that I did in those 3 days of vacation. Well, I think that's all I can share.

How are you guys? Actually, I was always thinking of internet while on vacation, haha.

Oh wait, I almost forgot. I'll let you see something special. Well, this is a nest. It has 5 eggs. We didn't eat the eggs. We just took a picture of it and returned it.

Did you have fun watching at my pictures? If so, then comment! hahaha

Anyway, thanks for reading!

Ahhh wait! I forgot to bring souvenirs! Damn!

Energetic Friend

Hi again~!

Today I seem to be energetic because I have received another comment from a friend of mine!

This comment adds to my eagerness in writing in this blog! I like this blog! Because it's in English! That means I can express what I want to express very well! I like this blog more than my Japanese blog!

OK so let me introduce you this commentator of mine. Although I can't let you see her face and talk much about her because it's private. I told her to comment as anonymous so that it'll be easy. This friend of mine is very energetic. Well you can describe her as talkative as well! But she's a helpful friend of mine. I like friends like her because they do overwhelm some people. I hope she will comment again on my blog! That's all I want to share about her now.

Oh and by the way, tomorrow, I and my family are going to another island. Well, our actual purpose for going there is test driving. Yes, and we will also be going to visit my dad's family. I mean my grandparents. When I get back , I'm sure I'll be bringing with me a lot of souvenirs for you! hehehe.

Thanks for reading! If I'll have the time and inspiration tonight, I'm sure I'll be updating my blog again this night!

Good afternoon! I just finished taking my lunch now. So now I feel like motivated to write something about me recently. Well, recently I couldn't sleep without the lights on. So, I need light to sleep. I became afraid of ghosts now because I could somewhat sense their voices in the night. When I sense that there is a ghost, my body would become heavy and I feel strange and scary. I believe there is a ghost in this world. Because many have seen it. I hate to sense ghost. I don't like scary things. But I tend to scare my friends, LOL.

Recently, I'm starting to write my diary in real. I mean writing my diary by using pen and notebook. Writing diary in real notebook is fun. But of course, I feel more comfortable writing diary in blog. Because blog is sophisticated and more OK. By the way, Do you like writing your diary in real?

These ball pens, I bought these in the city a few months ago. Well, I love to have ball pens. Since I was a kid, I'd really love to collect colorful things like ball pens. I would like to use these ball pens but these ball pens turned out to be just decorations. It's like "FOR YOUR EYES ONLY". 

I use one of these ball pens for writing my diary.

I usually stare at this kind of things. Somehow, it satisfies myself. I like this ball pens and notebook.

ameba pico friends

Yesterday in ameba pico

I think I hadn't done much in ameba pico because I was AFK. Well, AFK means away from the keyboard. But I had talked with one of my friends in ameba pico.

Everyone of my friends in ameba pico are multitasking. Maybe they were doing something. Perhaps Skype or talking with other friends in real life. But even so, I still understand them. Because they are my friends. And I know that their real friends are more precious than friends in ameba pico.

Today is sunday. And as usual, I'm staying in my parents' house, browsing the internet and write this. Today, I think my butt hurts. "Butt" is the polite word for "ass". So I prefer to use "butt" than "ass".

I wonder what is everyone doing in ameba pico... I want to talk with Japanese jiji now... but he thinks I'm just a nuisance, LOL. It's okay, IT'S OKAY, lol.

I'm in my summer vacation right now since April. My summer vacation will end in June. But I haven't found my "real summer" yet. So, I want to do things that fit for my "real summer". Because I'm not satisfied yet. But having met with my ameba pico friends is fun. It's FUN. I like them. I think our friendship right now is going well. Yes. So I am looking forward to our future. I think this is getting interesting.

Hello everybody! Today, I'm going to talk about yesterday. Well, yesterday was fun. Because there were many foods on the table. Because it's my brother's birthday. My brother doesn't care about his birthday though. My brother is my worst enemy. We don't get along each other. So I hate him.

 I ate plenty of food. I think I ate plenty of sweets like cake. Maybe I will gain weight. I hope not, lol. I want to reduce my wight. I want to become 50 kg, LOL. My current weight is actually 55 kg. So I want to become 50 kg so that I'll be easy to carry. But I'm too lazy to reduce my weight. I want an easy way to reduce my weight, lol. I always do exercise but not exactly "exercise".

I actually exercise by "typing and clicking", LOL. My fingers always exercise, hahaha. Seriously, I want to become 50 kg, lol. I think I'm becoming aware of my body weight lol. But I think that's not important. I can have natural way in reducing my weight. Like moving my bowels daily.... you know... poop... OK so that's it.

Yesterday also, my mother and I went to another house to see my aunt's BF. My aunt is actually in Dubai right now. Actually, that BF of hers is just internet BF. But when she comes home, I think she is going to be married with him, LOL. I don't care about his boy friend but I hope he's the right man for my aunt. Because my aunt is now over 40 years old and she still hasn't found her true love. So I hope that man will be the man whom my aunt is looking for.

Psychological Test Result (today)

Emotional Aptitude...

59.49%

The results of this test indicate that your Emotional Aptitude is average. This means that you are not fully utilizing your potential. Your Emotional Aptitude impacts everything in your life, including your self-esteem, how you handle stress, your creativity, the way you interact with people (personally and professionally), your motivation and resilience. Others may sometimes perceive you as a little tense, inexpressive, critical, moody, disinterested and impersonal. You may be more susceptible to stress, anxiety, regret, and low self esteem. Learning to harness your energy effectively will have a positive impact on your life. Begin by looking at yourself objectively, and thinking about the areas you want to improve. You may want to start with communication and stress management, which will help you deal with people more effectively and confidently. Listening to others is key. Concentrate on what they are saying and how they are saying it. This will help you understand others better, making you a patient and considerate listener. Working on your social skills will empower you. In turn, you will be more respected by others and yourself. Ask your friends and family to help you in needed areas. You can also read some self-help books to improve. And remember, we never stop growing and bettering ourselves.

Today

Today, I used my old laptop all day. To my surprise it is functioning well. Although my old laptop is sometimes freezing. I feel comfortable using laptop more than using my computer desktop.

I was also able to chat with one of our pico friends today. She is moralistic. I shared my story to her and she also shared her story to me. We kept on listening and talking each other until my pico coundn't move. So, I had to refresh it. So that made our conversation end.

Talking with a person is a great feeling for me. I mean, "person" is different from "blog". I usually didn't talk anyone about my burdens, sufferings and experiences. Because I thought my story was just annoying and a hassle. I thought nobody would listen to me if I talk about my feelings.

Today, I watched two of Toma Ikuta's movie on TV. That is "Ningen Shikkaku" and "Hanamizuki". I like Hanamizuki movie. But I didn't focus so much on watching those 2 movies because I was chatting with a pico friend. So, I can't understand those 2 movies.

Today, I could talk properly with a friend. I think I have relieved myself from all the burdens that I have been carrying for so long.

Thank you for reading. Have a good evening.

5,000,000 gummies as gift & my pico's room

Yesterday, I was really happy and shopped a lot of items. That's because a pico friend of mine gave me 5 million gummies. Yes. 5 MILLION GUMMIES. Can you believe that?? Her pico is super rich! She gave a lot of gummies to other friends too.

When she gave me 5 million gummies by losing JANKEN, I immediately thanked her. I was really happy at that time because my pico became rich. Which means I can go shopping and play gacha as much as I want.

Yesterday, I played gacha all day long. My goal for playing gacha many times is to get tokens. Yes, I repeat, TOKENS. I think TOKENS are special in pico. Because tokens are used to buy items that need TOKEN.

Now I'll introduce you to my room

This is the dining room. I added HD TV and speakers in the dining room so that dining room will look nice.  Actually, the dining room is near the kitchen.

This is the kitchen. Unfortunately, my pico can't cook. Ameba Pico doesn't offer cooking in the kitchen.

I added a pot of flower on top of the refrigerator.I think my pico is big, LOL.

This is the living room or the lounge room. I think this is cool. I think the rectangular tea glass table is the thing that makes this room cool. But all the furniture items in this room are cool. I like this luxury sofa.

This is my pico's bedroom. Do you like it? I added a Japanese lucky cat. I like my pico's bed.

This is connected to the bedroom.

This area is the laundry room. I added flowers.

So, what do you think of my pico room? Is it nice? Please feel free to visit my room anytime. My pico ID is "H A G U M I". And also, please leave comments in my pico room. Thank you.

Friends in pico

Have you ever experienced that one of your friends in the internet tried to leave you and your friends? If you ask me, well I have! Many times! But I'll tell you what happened yesterday.

A lot of things happened yesterday. In the evening, I played pico. There, I chatted with my friends. I don't remember mostly what we had chatted because I am forgetful. But I remember one friend of ours almost stopped playing pico. Maybe it was because of the misunderstanding and joke in skype? That friend of ours is unfathomable. He is even more moralistic than one of our friends in pico. We tried to make him think to come back in pico because friends will be gloomy if he will be gone. And then, that person cancelled his cessation of playing pico. So, everyone became happy especially the leader of our group, Ayako. And that's great.

 Being happy always is good, I think. I like my friends to be happy, always. I don't want them to experience what I had experienced before in the internet. Yes, many friends of mine in the internet had left me for some reasons. One of those reasons is "going back to real world". Going back to real world is a very good thing, I think.

What makes a person go back to the real world? I think, they have realized many things. Maybe they have already realized that internet wouldn't bring them any good. Maybe, internet has messed up their life. So, they go back to real world where true people, true friends and true life are there.